conflicted/

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There is a mile wide gap between what i think i want and what i know i deserve. 

I gave you
The jacket off my back and
The shoes off my feet and
The gloves off my hands and
The hat off my head and
The heart out of my chest and
You gave me hope and
Attention and
Loving words and
I only just realized now that
I need back my jacket and
My shoes and
My gloves and
My hat because
You never gave me
The warmth from your heart and
I'm over here just
Trying to care for you to
Forget that I am freezing. 

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