We Are Groop

There is a mile wide gap between what i  think i want and what i know i deserve.  I gave you The jacket off my back and The shoes off my feet and The gloves off my hands and The hat off my head and The heart out of my chest and You gave me hope and Attention and Loving words and I only just realized now that I need back my jacket and My shoes and My gloves and My hat because You never gave me The warmth from your heart and I'm over here just Trying to care for you to Forget that I am freezing. 

i hold charcoal like a cigarette, press the ashes on white fiber. the black smoke a shade of addiction, and orange embers a highlight like nicotine. i whisper of dead cells in my brain, raise the graphite to my lips draw in a breath and blend the black to gray i'll reveal my truth, light the cigarette and shadow my youth.